I haven't blogged about the pain I'm living with, but I read today's blog by Bonnie Leon and related completely to what she said. Following her article is a letter I wrote to her about the problems we have in common, physically and our focus on God. If anyone reads this, I am happy to share my thoughts here with you. I'm not really a blogger yet, I really don't know how...but I guess this is one way to start. How do you bring readers to a blog? I don't know. Could someone please tell me?
On Thursday of last week my therapist added a couple of new exercises. They didn't seem too bad at the time, but the following morning my back told me otherwise. It screamed at me first thing and I found myself, once again, stuck in bed rotating from ice to heat and taking my medications as often as allowed. I was an unhappy and hopeless sheep. I cried a lot that day and wondered if I'd ever really be a whole person again. My eyes were not on the shepherd.
It's startling and troubling how quickly adversity dragged me away from The Shepherd. There is wonder in it, however. My Lord hadn't left me. He was still with me and He longed for me to reach out to Him, to rest in Him and in His plan. Even in the midst of trouble I can rejoice. Psalm 31:7 says, "I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles and you care about the anguish of my soul." He cares . . . always.
I'm better and I'm moving forward once again. I'm doing my exercises, only more carefully now. I will see my therapist tomorrow and we'll make adjustments in my therapy plan, but I will continue to work toward health and strength. As much as I dislike it, the truth is adversity makes me stronger. But in the midst of trouble I must remember to remain close to my Lord, keep my eyes on Him and off the hardship.
I pray that next time I'm up against it, and I will be, that I will not lose sight of The Shepherd who watches over me and to trust in what He allows.
Hello Bonnie, I don't consider it a coincidence that I read your blog a few minutes ago and quickly related to your words. I consider this a Godincidence. We have pain and back problems in common, and tomorrow I will see my therapist for the first time. I'm not looking forward to it very much, although I realize the exercises I learn are for my benefit. God knows about my fearing further pain and I took solace in your words. I have been concentrating more on the pain than I have on God helping me through what comes next. My prayers from now on will be different. Thought of God and his promises will come before I groan in pain in the morning. Thank you for your encouraging words and the meaning in your message. I will keep you in my prayers knowing we are participating in the same activity to strengthen our bodies against pain and listening to what God tells us to do about it. It would be a good thing to keep in touch.
Sharing Christ's Love,